*WARNING*  This post is purely my opinion.  NOTHING in this post is crafting related, so feel free to NOT read it.  In fact it is 100% opinion, feel free to close the page.   I am also disabling comments on this post, because I know how political and religious posts can bring out the most emotional of comments.  I have no desire to fight over how I FEEL.  This post is purely commentary pertaining to my thoughts and feelings over the state of the United States at this time.

*sigh* I really have been trying NOT to make this post, but writing this once will be easier then writing it in 30 emails.

Over the last few weeks, I have gotten MANY emails asking about my thoughts on the election, and the issues.  I have had many intelligent conversations with many people with definite different opinions.  It is such a wonderful thing that we can discuss these things, with such differing opinions without hatred or getting emotional.  I would like to thank all my friends who I have been corresponding with.  Your opinions and ideals have done nothing less then enlighten me to the thoughts and feelings of my friends.  I can say “friend”, because though we have never met face to face, or shared a rich evening of dinner and fun, we have corresponded on many topics.  Several of you I feel I have grown to know better then my own siblings!

Now, on to my post…

I am so glad the election is over.  The current administration has tried and failed to remedy the cancer that this country inserted itself into. I feel everything we are going thru right now, has spread from the cancer of this war.

We NEED someone to end the war we shouldn’t be in anyway, bring our soldiers home, bring our jobs home, bring the money back HOME. 

It truly is TIME for a change.

I have remained silent when asked who I would be voting for, I did not feel it my place to influence ANYONES opinions on who they were voting for. 

Now that it is over, I will tell you I did not vote. *gasp*…  I know, how could I, right? 

I did not vote because I did not feel there was a candidate I could support.  I do not think OBama is ready to RUN a country.  In a few years, maybe but not yet.  I do not think McCain would bring forth much change to the administration and I do not think Palin was ready to be in the White House.  For me it certainly was not a black/white man/woman issue.  It was a “this country is f***ed up right now and we need it fixed* issue.

For the first time in my life, I am afraid to be an American.  I am not afraid of what OBama will do to this country.  He is one man, and President or not there is still a system of checks and balances that he must squeeze his intentions through before he can put them into action.  I do still have faith in the system of democracy.  It is what this country was built upon, and in my heart of heart I do not think it will fail us.

I am afraid of how this country will react to having an African American as President.  As I watched the announcement of OBamas win, and saw the reaction of the crowds in Chicago, I looked at all the tears and wondered if the people were happy because finally there was hope to end the war and fix our country, or were the tears just because finally there was a black man as president.  To me, the two are a world apart.  

I am not african american, I can not pretend to understand how justifying it must feel to finally see a black man as president.  Hell, Im just happy to finally see SOMEBODY NEW!  My friend Mikki said she was crying because she felt that her son could now really feel like he could do anything….  As a mother, I do understand the “being able to tell my kids they really CAN do anything, and having them BELIEVE it”.    But is there more to it then that?

In my heart, I feel like the answer is yes.  I am afraid this county as a whole is not ready.  Where I live I see racism, Everyday.  From BOTH SIDES.  I’m afraid of the change in attitude I have seen in the last 2 days.  It is not JUST joy I see on the faces of my neighbors, there is something more I feel bubbling there just under the surface.  An ugly something, and it brings great fear to my heart.  I hope this country can pull together, and realize there is more important things to deal with then whether Mr OBama’s skin is brown or peach. 

For the first time in my life, I feel like I should be looking over my shoulder as I walk through the store.  For the first time as a mother, I feel like I must watch my children stand at the bus stop “just incase”.  For the first time in my LIFE, I am truly AFRAID to be an American.

I am praying for Mr. OBama.  I fear for his safety.  And if something should, heaven forbid, happen to him what that would do to this country.  There are already so many emotions entangled in his Presidency, so much hope.  I refuse to let my mind imagine what would happen if something happened to him.  I fear for us.  I am praying for us.  Because I am afraid.  Not of OBama, but of us.

I have had many interesting conversations on the Gay marriage proposition too.  I will not say whether I think Same Sex marriages are ok or not.  I will say that whether I feel they are ok is irrelevant.  It is my opinion that the GOVERNMENT should have NO say what so ever in WHO should or should not be able to marry.  I honestly feel that the government being able to say that gays can not marry is only a half a sentence from saying that blacks cant marry whites or catholics cant marry baptists or a blue eye cant marry a green eye.  I think that the passing of this proposition is a step in the wrong direction, and I hope that by the time my daughter is of the age to marry she still has a CHOICE, and can marry whomever her heart begs her to.

*sigh*

welp thats it.  my presidential thoughts and emotions, laid out there in one post. think of me what you will.