Story time, you ready?
May 25th, 2009 | 
Author: Today is a brand new day.
Today is the first day for a brand new me. Well, maybe not brand new ME, but a new attitude anyway. I hope. A new journey to say the least.
In order for me to tell you where I’m going, I really think I need to tell you where I’ve been. So you will understand. See, you are going to play a big role in the new ME. In order for you to do that, you need to get me. You know?
Insert fairytale music and a story board that reads “Once upon a time…”
This was me. 
A new mommy, and a size 8. Man, I hadn’t been a size 8 since like 7th grade. I think I was the healthiest right then, than I ever have been. Or probably will be again. Physically healthy anyway.
There I was a new mommy and mad, crazy, I would rather die then be alone, in love with this guy…
For the sake of this story, lets just call him “Douche”. Douche there was a cheater. He nearly broke me. That year and a half for me was pure hell… He sucked.
But then something wondrous happened. GOD gave me this guy…
*insert heavenly harps playing and birds singing…*
Now this guy, this one was good. He loved me. He loved my son. He saved me. Took me away from all the craziness that was “the Douche”, just long enough for me to heal. And then we came home.
When we came home, we got this… isn’t she cute.
By this photo we had already had her for 5 years. And when she came so did about 60 pounds.
That really was ok with me though. I have never been a makeup/fix hair/care what I looked like kind of girl. In truth, still not. I could care less what I look like or what you think about the way I look. That’s just not me.
Last year, (or year before?) we bought our home. And with our home came about another 80 pounds.
That brings us up to today.
This is me (on the right)…
All 272 pounds of me. And today starts a whole new journey for me. I am back on Nutrisystem. I need to lose weight. I am fat.
There, I said it out loud too. I feel better already.
Two Hundred and Seventy Two pounds.
No way to take it back now, its out there. Out there for you and everyone else who stumbles on my blog to see.
Wow, I kind of feel naked. That’s ok though. I like naked. Usually. Ok, maybe not so much right now. But I did need you to know.
See, you read my blog. I need you, for support. You, in a sense, complete me. (lol, sorry it popped into my head and I had to say it!)
If you come to my blog looking for freebies or scrap goodies, I’m sorry. My mojo has smothered in one of my fat rolls and I am now on a journey to find it. It may take a while.
If you come by here because you are my friend, then YOU are who I am telling this story to today.
I probably won’t post much between now and the 5th. I am training up some new girls, and training up some new management, getting everything in line so I can take a vacation from DSO. I need a vacation, because I need to work on something more important right now.
I need, from you… If you could spare a little encouragement from time to time. Maybe if you notice I haven’t mentioned it, just ask me how its going, the dieting… that would be a huge huge help for me.
See, my hubby (above), he loves me. In fact he tells me I am perfect. He doesn’t care if I am fat or skinny. So he is no help in this area. But I need help. I really do. I’m so tired. And really tired of –> being tired. It’s too much.
I can do this.
I will do this.
for them… 
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Oh… That was so honest and open! I seriously have tears because you WANT it… and if you WANT it… You will SUCCEED!
I love your blog because you write funny things so I will be back. Just dont make me cry again, ok!!
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OK I will admit I am laughing at teh douche part, laughing like hell actually, but in reality it takes real courage to decide to change something and stick to that decision.
So good for you Bunny for having the BALLS (yes I said balls on your blog) to decide to do something about your weight.
Stick to your guns and we’ll shout encouragement from the sidelines!!!
Kristine’s last blog post..My brain…
Oh Bunny..you have taken that first step..airing the old demons and reaching for a new peaceful you..thats the biggest hurdle in my books..and you lovely lady have raised yourself way over that bar……such a brave person to bear your soul..take it from me i have been in that deep hole..but i am not as brave as you ..I am encouraged by you my lady..keep walking forward..
I finally found my knoght after years of living with toads and he brought me back from the depth of despair..when we first met(and i dont think he knows this) but he sent me this poem..which I kept and means the world to me..i am passing this onto you..((hugss))Charlie
ROAD LESS TRAVELED
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth
Then took the other as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet, knowing how way leads onto way
I doubted if I should ever come back
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference
Robert Frost
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I love you no matter what size you are, but I want you to be around for a LONG time and I need you to be healthy for that. You CAN do this, I KNOW it. That size 8 Bunny is still in there and is screaming to get out.
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Okay, I’m with Kristine, LMAO at “The Douche” part!
The remainder of the post is so heartfelt, I feel honored that you have shared it with us. I am amazed at your courage, you WILL accomplish your goals!
Enjoy your well deserved vacation and keep us posted on the progress!
Big hugs,
Vicki
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WOOHOO for you Bunny!
Both for your ‘don’t care’ mentality, as your new ‘I’m gonna do something about it’ mentality. I think both can be healing. When you don’t want to put energy into losing the weight, then it’s best not to put energy in sulking about it either, and just enjoy life. And it sure sounds like you deserved to just enjoy, after the road traveled.
But when we come to a point the fat either bothers us, for whatever reason, then we have to lose the ‘don’t care’ and get to the fixing part of it. Sounds like you’re there, it really does.
Good for you for being so brave to put yourself out here for all to see. It just might be the extra help you need!
GO GIRL!!
You never sounded like a girl that, once she put her mind to something, would easily change it.
So… I just KNOW you can DO this!
Hugs,
Dinphy
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I am HERE, Bunny.
I am WITH you on your journey.
I am going to PRAY you up as you go forward.
You’ve made the FIRST STEP… thats the most important one. You can’t end your journey, reach your goal unlesss you take this first step. You’ve convinced your mind you are going, your mind will TELL your body to git along with it.
Do you have an ipod? If you do then download the App called Lose It! Its FREE and allows you to set your goals {according to your weight, how much you want to lose, when by etc} It allows you to input your food and exercise and it goes with you WHEREVER you are. I’ve been using it for a bit now and am TOTALLY impressed. Does not need to be connected with the net. You can even put in your own foods.
I know this is ‘do-able’ for you.
I’ll be here.
Love, Barb
PS – sorry about DSO – its sure a loss for them.
Oh, gosh, Bunny! I’ll have to find some pom-poms to wave on the sidelines to cheer you on! Actually – that little bit of exercise will help me, too – since I’m going down that path myself. That weight goes on much easier than it comes off – so perhaps we can encourage each other!
((Hugs)) girl!
Good luck Bunny! I know that you can do it! You are a very strong woman and I know you can do it.
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Whew. Talk about baring one’s soul. I’ll be here or wherever to support you too, Bunny. I love you, girl, and agree 100% that how we LOOK is not that important. Your wonderful man accepts how you look, and that is fabulous. BUT … how we FEEL and how healthy we are is VERY important and THAT should be your goal …. to feel good and feel healthy.
Anything I can do to help.
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You go girl!
you don’t really know me , but I frequent DSO
wanted to give you a big support hug and let you know I am thinking of you and praying for your success 
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You Go Bunny! I agree with everyone…you’ve already taken the first step
Its hard, very hard, but I have no doubt that you are a strong woman that CAN do it! For those of us that come by your blog for an honest and humorous take on everyday life and not just scrapbooking/freebies, we’ll be here for you…and because you’ve done a wonderful job with DSO, it will be too. Big Hugs GF!
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Congratulations on the new you. I admire your courage and look forward to watching you achieve your goals. You go girl
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GO BUNNY !! !! !! You can do it.. you are such an awsome woman… Most of all you are being honest with yourself and you know what you want.. GO GET IT GIRL !!!!!!! I love the photo of the kids.. they are just beautiful
GO YOU! You can do it girlie. I have full faith & confidence in you. And you’re gonna rock it.
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((((BUNNY))))! I too was laughing at the douche part, but it’s the rest of the story that pulled at my heart. I’m so very proud of D for loving you and so proud of you for deciding to do what you need to do to take care of you! I’ll always be here to cheer you on or cheer you up! You go girl!
I love your raw honesty! And that you poured your heart out for all to see & read. I’m so happy for you that your hubby loves you no matter what! But it really is about how YOU feel. I think you’re such an amazing & talented woman! You can definitely achieve anything you put your mind to. You GO GIRL!! You CAN DO IT!!! I’m right there with you…I’m trying to lose this baby weight & get healthier too. Your beautiful sweeties will appreciate a healthier & happier you.
((hugs))
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I know you can do it! You’ve done the hardest part and said it out loud! I’m here if you need to chat.
Hugs,
Lynn
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Ok- I was waiting for my turn in the shower and decided to come and read!
Girl you know how much I love YA, It’s that blatant honesty of yours that makes you so unique- and from what I’ve read here – you have now just been TRUE to yourself. That takes guts and BALLS! I KNOW- I’ve been there (as you know) and it’s NOT easy, but you have taken THE first big step! A POSITIVE step to help YOU! Because in the long run it is about YOU and no one else.
OOH this is a subject I could talk about for hours lol.
Wayne didn’t even KNOW I was as big as I was- to him I was still *Kim*- the same. But I KNEW, and it was for ME that I lost weight. The times I did it because *so and so thought I was overweight- blah blah blah* I failed.
I’m PROUD of you and you know you have the biggest cheerleader on this side and I will help you anyway I can-
Just stay away from the damb mushrooms- LOL
LOVE you girl FOR YOU!
Here’s to a healthier YOU no matter WHAT size you are OK!
MWAH
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Bunny–
I wish that I could be there with you because I too need to lose and it would be easier to do it with another body who wants it. You can count on my support!!! You will never know how many of my days you have brightened with your humor and I sure want you to be around to keep doing that for me and for everyone else who comes here to read your inspiring and funny words. You go girl!!! I know you can do it!!!
Bunny,
I am SOOOOO proud of you and for you. For all the “sticks” out there, they don’t understand that it’s not the first step that’s the hardest when your goal is to lose more than those “swimsuit-ready-2.2 pounds” they complain about annually in April. No, it’s every single thing that goes in your mouth that you have to think about, and every miniscule calorie you burn off, and it’s how much of your life it consumes just to stay focused.
Never lose heart, Bunny. You’re a gift to so many, but more importantly you’re a gift to yourself.
Be strong and courageous. You have a world of support from me. HUG.
Melanie
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You go girl! You know you can do this, I have been there and I know I took an easier way out, but you can do it girl!
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You don’t know me, I stumbled upon your blog through a link through a yahoo group.
I just wanted to leave a word of encouragement – I appreciate your honesty and willingness to face up to your weight. I struggle the same way, and it is a lifelong struggle. I wish I could say something uplifting like “I did it, you can too”. But I can’t because I haven’t! But you’ve inspired me to get back on the wagon – I do Weight Watchers – and learn to eat well along with you! Good luck and hang in there!
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You go girl!
Cheering from the sidelines.
P.S. I agree with Barb (above). I downloaded the same app from iTunes onto my touch iPod, and it is awesome! I started this morning – I have some extra lbs/kgs to lose, too.
All the best!
a Canuck
WOW, I know this is an old post of yours, but when I read it, I just had to comment to let you know that I am here for you as well. With out writing a book here, as when you get to really know me you will understand that I am not a very good writer at all. My brother got all those talents (journalist in the military for 22 years.) ANYWAY…YOU have made a very gutty step here and wanted you to know that, I too am FAT and working on it as well, for me this time and my health. But this isn’t about me, it is about a friend needing support in a very hard thing for most of us to fight and realize that we have to do this form OURSELVES so that we can enjoy our children grow, blossom and learn from us that it is important to take care of “ME”!
Love ya Bunny and I am here as a friend to support you 100%!
Dawn aka Snowsmoon
ps….in your opinion how does the Nutrisystem taste…I am doing Herbilife Systems again!