just a girl

September 29th, 2009 |

Author: Bunny

{tmi?}

today, im just a girl… sittin here starin at my phone…waitin for the dr to call with my biopsy results…torn between hoping they are positive or hoping they are negative. strange, right? who wants positive biopsy results? well, today, i would take it. i would take anything. anything is better then nothing. i am tired of not knowing. knowing would be the first step in not being sick all the time. the first step in getting my life back!

i keep getting emails and comments wondering what i found out at the dr. so far, NOTHING!

the first trip was a general “looksy” and a full panel of blood work, including hormones and thyroid. thats it. pretty much the dr saying “hmmm, yep something is wrong but i have no idea what so lets throw some darts at this dart board and see what we hit” so that day they sucked out like 10 tubes of blood and sent me on my way to come back another day. just got the bill for that and um that lil visit was $700+. yikes! thats a lot of money for an “i dont know”

on trip 2 i got my blood test results. everything was normal. huh? hormones normal, thyroid normal. blood pressure was high but she was concerned that my “blood count” was only 7 when it should be a 12. I do NOT know “what” blood count, she didnt say. since my bloodworking dart did not hit on anything specific, she decided to do a ultrasound and a pap smear, which were totally normal so she decided a biopsy of my uterine wall would reveal the answer because it was the only other thing she knew to check.

she was supposed to call friday or yesterday with my test results. she did not call. so this morning i called them. i was put on hold and then told the dr would rather speak to me herself and would call me back later today. hmmm. is that good or bad?

if she calls back and says she STILL has no idea, what then? i’m thinking really i should be trying to find a different dr. but how do you even do that? im not a dr kind of person. we dont have a family physician, i dont go to the dr. i have to be dying to go to the dr. really! how do you pick a dr? how do you know you are seeing the right kind of dr?

sigh.

today i’m just a girl impatiently waiting a phone call. the phone call that will reveal the process that will become my near future. ring phone. phone, ring. ring. ring dammit…

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Tags: dr, health, sick, tests

8 Responses to “just a girl”

Linda Walton aka bobbysgirlforever says:

September 29, 2009 at 5:30 pm

As I am kind of, sort of, in the same place as you are with the NOT knowing what the heck IS going on inside of me, I can relate with how you are feeling and I, too, would be between the negative and positive report as at least having an idea of what may or may not be going on is settling to a certain extent!

I am SO hoping you get that call ASAP! I spent several hours online last night before turning in, once again, doing my own research so that I am armed when I go in for my blood panel next month. I am tired of feeling like a guinea pig and then when I find something that is half-way working for me, the FDA has to throw a wrench in it to further line their already OVERSTUFFED pocket books! Back to square one for me.

I am the same way in not visiting the doctor until something is wrong and I am trying to change that up a bit this year. I will say this, a GOOD doctor will listen to YOU and work with you until he/she finds an answer whether it be via his/her own findings or that you are referred to a specialist if he/she suspects something and you would be better served by someone who specializes in that particular area.

I am a big supporter of “word of mouth”, so if your neighbors, friends and such know of someone highly recommended, that is always a plus. You might even try searching online in your area after the doctor you are currently seeing has given you his/her final answer and it leaves you feeling unsettled. I am hoping the answer leads you to the next positive step in restoring your health.

Thinking GOOD thoughts for you Ms. Bunny …
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Charlie says:

September 30, 2009 at 5:14 am

Its not much fun , but hang in there BUnny ((hugs))
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Kim says:

September 30, 2009 at 6:58 am

My thoughts are with you Bunny, I remember the Dr visits that I made when my back pain first started. Getting someone to listen instead of saying that I was too young to be feeling that type of pain. Finally they found the cause of the pain, and I’m being treated. The not knowing was the hardest part.
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Sherrie says:

September 30, 2009 at 12:59 pm

I am praying for you Bunny. I hope that you get a diagnosis soon, and that it is one that is easy to correct.
As for finding a good doctor, you ask every one of your friends who their doctors are. Then you talk to a general doctor or nurse you know and ask them who THEY would go to if they had the same problem. My husband works in the information systems dept of our local hospital, and he has meetings with lots of doctors. From those meetings, he finds out who the best docs in town are. Do you know anyone who works in the hospital(s) near you? Is there a hospital just for women in your area? That might be a good place to look.

Good luck and God Bless…
Dinphy says:

October 1, 2009 at 7:51 am

Oh doesn’t waiting stink!
I’m crossing fingers, toes, eyes for you. So hoping the dr will call, telling you she found something, very harmless, and it can be fixed in the blink of an eye.

Hugs
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Shannon - Desert Designs says:

October 1, 2009 at 10:55 am

Bummer! Sometimes the waiting is the worst! I know you’ve talked to her now, and that you have some big decisions to make – so sending hugs and prayers that all will work out and that we get our Bunny back!
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Lori says:

October 2, 2009 at 6:50 am

Bunny, I am so sorry you are going through this! And it is regrettable that your doctor has not called you back. But…, she has been extremely proactive in searching for the cause of your illness–which makes her more trustworthy. But Linda Walton is right on when she advises the word-of-mouth technique. People experience things themselves or through friends and relatives. It is amazing the information you can receive just by discussing things with your own friends and neighbors. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Lori
lou says:

October 3, 2009 at 1:23 pm

Just wonderin’ Bunny, did the Dr phone?
hugs x

just a girl

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